I’ll be honest, I’m a little stumped on this one. I’m a bit of an “open book” personality – not through choice, but purely because I don’t have the filters to actually stop me from coming out with all my secrets. I’m great at keeping other people’s secrets, but my own? Rubbish.
So, a secret about me. Umm…
Okay. I love being a mum. Not super keen on pregnancy, but I enjoyed birth and I love motherhood… after the first six months. I found the first six months with SB a real struggle as postnatal depression kicked my ass a bit and I felt lonely and isolated. Once she became more of a little person as opposed to a tiny newborn, it was great and I felt like I really settled into parenthood, but I didn’t enjoy the first six months.
Which is why when we have another baby, I’d take maybe six weeks of maternity leave, to recover physically, and then Daf would take over and take the extended parental leave. I’m so glad they’ve introduced shared parental leave because it’s perfect for families like mine, where postnatal depression is an issue and it’s not just assumed that the mum takes to motherhood instantly. Going back to uni the September after SB was born restored my sanity.
It’s not so much a secret as a taboo subject, because mums aren’t supposed to have these feelings, but I’m all about the honesty, so there we go! Maybe the more of us who talk about this, the more we’ll reduce the stigma of postnatal depression. I had no problem bonding with SB – my problem was with adjusting to parenthood. Maybe next time it’ll be easier, but we’ve got this contingency plan just in case.
Ooh, today’s #Blogtober16 challenge was a tough one!
What would you spend your winnings on if you won the lottery?